Message From Under Water

Message From Under Water

If you were my love, so help me to run away from you
If you were my doctor, so help me to be healed by you
If I know that love is very dangerous, I would have never like to love
If I know that the ocean is so deep, I would never like to navigate
And if know my end, I would never like to get started

I miss you, so teach me how to not miss anymore
Teach me how to scissor your love roots from the deeps
Teach me how the tears die in the eyes
Teach me how the love should die and suicide the Nostalgia

You pictured to me the world like poems in poetry
Then implant your wound in my chest and took the patience
If still I am a treasure to you, then take my hands
Because I’ve fallen at you from my head to my toes

The blue waves in your eyes, it is calling me toward to the deeps
And I haven’t experienced that love, nor haven’t by any boat
Am I breathing under the water??!!
No… I’m sinking…sinking… sinking…

Hey… you complete my present, my old, my age of life
Could you hear my voice that is coming from the deeps??!!
If you are strong enough, so pull me out of this swamp
Cause still I do not know the art of swimming

If I know that love is very dangerous, I would have never like to love
If I know that the ocean is so deep, I would never like to navigate
And if know my end, I would never like to get started

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I Fall For

I Fall For

I fall in love with the ocean

Because it’s warmhearted like you

And sometimes crazy like you

Because it’s migratory, it’s traveler

Sometimes bewildered like you

And sometimes sad like you

But always full of the patience

Therefore I fall in love with the ocean

I fall in love with the sky

Because it’s forgiving like you

Cultivated with stars delight

Because it’s lovely, it’s weird

Sometimes it’s very far

And sometimes it’s much closed

Bringing to me, the melody of your eyes

Therefore I fall in love with the sky

I fall in love with the road

Because here is where we met

Our happiness and our sadness

Here in it, our tears smiled

Here in it, our candles cried

Here in it, we lost the friend

Therefore I fall in love with the road

I fall in love with the ocean

And I fall in love with the sky

And I fall in love with the road

Because they are all the life

Therefore my love, you are my life

That I fall for

I Wish You Love

I Wish You Love

Goodbye, no use leading with our chins
This is where our story ends
Never lovers, ever friends

Goodbye, let our hearts call it a day
But before you walk away
I sincerely want to say

I wish you bluebirds in the spring
To give your heart a song to sing
And then a kiss, but more than this
I wish you love

And in July, a lemonade
To cool you in some leafy glade
I wish you health
But more than wealth
I wish you love

My breaking heart and I agree
That you and I could never be
So with my best
My very best
I set you free

I wish you shelter from the storm
A cozy fire to keep you warm
But most of all when snow flakes fall
I wish you love

But most of all when snowflakes fall

I wish you love

I wish you love

I wish you love, love, love, love, love

I wish you love

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In Heart Of Night

In heart of night
And silence melody was so quiet
Like the Nile waves

In heart of night
And the fear coldness was quivering the horses’ teeth
And there is no one in the street
Except foal, tied, despondency
And osier
And me, and the silence
And the cold of the night
And the fear of the night

Then the foal neighed and I didn't understand
Is it afraid of me or wondered?
I asked the foal but didn't understand
Didn’t understand my words nor it do reply
And was inside its eyes
Sheen of me
Seems it was asking me
I stood for looking at it, and it looking at me
Looking at it and it keeps looking at me
And when it became like my darling
We opened our narrations doors
Then we strayed in our songs
In cold of night
And fears of night
And sadness of nigh

There was around its neck, fetter injured it
And fetter around my neck, but it didn't descry it.
But it feels it
Sure, it feels it
Then suddenly we found our dreams
And the morn neighed in our eyes
I catch its fetter, and untied it
It neighed by meanings, I felt it
Then it became running
And forgetting me
And running
And forgetting me
And I’m running
But to different way
In cold of night
And fears of night
And sadness of nigh

At in other night, and after a long time
I found it lonely again
And there was around its neck, another fetter
It neighed again
But I didn’t reply!
And again I’m alone
Still walking
In cold of night
And fears of night
And sadness of nigh

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Beginning today ...

Beginning today …

Beginning today I will no longer worry about yesterday.
It is in the past and the past will never change.
Only I can change by choosing to do so.

Beginning today I will no longer worry about tomorrow.
Tomorrow will always be there, waiting for me to make the most of it.
But I cannot make the most of tomorrow without first making the most of today.

Beginning today I will look in the mirror and I will see a person worthy of my respect and admiration.
This capable person looking back at me is someone I enjoy spending time with and someone I would like to get to know better.

Beginning today I will cherish each moment of my life.
I value this gift bestowed upon me in this world and I will unselfishly share this gift with others.
I will use this gift to enhance the lives of others.

Beginning today I will take a moment to step off the beaten path and to revel in the mysteries I encounter.
I will face challenges with courage and determination.
I will overcome what barriers there may be which hinder my quest for growth and self-improvement.

Beginning today I will take life one day at a time, one step at a time.
Discouragement will not be allowed to taint my positive self-image, my desire to succeed or my capacity to love.

Beginning today I walk with renewed faith in human kindness.
Regardless of what has gone before, I believe there is hope for a brighter and better future.

Beginning today I will open my mind and my heart.
I will welcome new experiences.
I will meet new people.
I will not expect perfection from myself nor anyone else: perfection does not exist in an imperfect world.
But I will applaud the attempt to overcome human foibles.

Beginning today I am responsible for my own happiness and I will do things that make me happy . . . admire the beautiful wonders of nature, listen to my favorite music, pet a kitten or a puppy, soak in a bubble bath . . . pleasure can be found in the most simple of gestures.


Beginning today I will learn something new; I will try something different; I will savor all the various flavors life has to offer.
I will change what I can and the rest I will let go.
I will strive to become the best me I can possibly be.

Beginning today and every day.

If I promised you...

If I promised you the world
would you be able to bear it
If I promised you friendship
would you be able to share it

If I promised you my respect
would you gladly take it
If I promised you my heart
would you please not forsake it

If I promised you my trust
would you please not toss it
If I promised you my help
would you try not to boss it

If I promised you forever
would you leap on it
If I promised you my embrace
would you sleep on it

If I promised you my warmth
would it keep you secure
If I promised you love
would you keep it pure

If I promise you my love until the end of time
would that be enough So I Could Call You Mine

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Smile & Teardrop

Smile & Teardrop


Each teardrop has an end...
And the end of any teardrop is smile...
And each smile has an end...
And the end of any smile is teardrop!

The life melody is the beginning and the ending...
It's the smile and the teardrop...
So, don't delight much and don't sadden much…
Because if you harmed by one of them…
The other one will come in the fate pages!

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Shattered Valentine

Wanting a special day at last
Just letting go of the dark memories from the past
He wanted a gift from someone special
But that person seemed to be so close-minded and superficial

He watched all of his friends get many gifts from each other
And saw their eyes filling with tons of joy
Seeing his friends continuously giving and taking
He realized his heart would never stop breaking

With every present going around
He felt very lonely and a tear fell to the ground
Keeping high hopes for that single Valentine
He waited, and waited, to officially call that girl behind

That boy had his dream shattered until it was a small piece
Negative thoughts ran through his mind, and his agony wouldn't decrease
He kept up his hopes for that one girl he admired
Since she was the only girl he truly desired

In the end, in that girl's eyes, he was only a reject
His Valentine's Day was now totally wrecked
Without a single present or someone to call his own
He left home that day - torn, miserable, and alone

True Story ... (Quoted)

I have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His name is Jin.
I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club, I found out that I fell in love with him.
Before the trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him.
And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each other in different ways.
I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there were so many other girls.
To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl...
"Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?" I asked.
"I can't"
"Why? You need to study at home?" I felt disappointment grabbing me.
"No... I am going to meet a friend..."
He was always like that.
He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing.
To him, I was just a girlfriend.
The word 'love' only came out of my mouth.
Since I knew him, I had never heard I'm say 'I love you' before.
To us, there weren't any anniversaries at all.
He didn't say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 days...200 days...
Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don't know why...
Then one day...
Me: Um, Jin, I...
Jin: What...don't drag, just say...
Me: I love you.
Jin: ...........you. ....um, just take this doll and go home.
That was how he ignored my 'three words' and handed me the doll.
Then he disappeared, like he was running away.
The dolls I received from him everyday filled my room, one by one.
There were many....
Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday.
When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call.
But... lunch passed, dinner passed...and soon the sky was dark... he still didn't call.
It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore.
2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep.
He told me to come out of the house.
Still. I felt joy and I ran out happily.
Me: Jin...
Jin: Here...take this...
Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What's this?
Jin: I didn't give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now.
I'm going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
Jin: Today? Huh?
I felt so sad; I thought he would remember my birthday.
He turned around and walked away like nothing had happened.
Then I shouted...
"Wait..."
Jin: You have something to say?
Me: Tell me; tell me you love me...
Jin: What?!
Me: Tell me
I put my pathetic self behind and clung onto him.
But he just said simple cold words and left.
"I don't want to say...that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else."
That was what he said. Then ran off...
My legs felt numb...and I collapsed to the ground. He didn't want to say it easily...
How could he...
I felt that...
Maybe he is not the right guy for me...
After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying.
He didn't call me, although I was waiting.
He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house.
That's how those dolls piled up in my room... everyday
After a month, I got myself together and went to school.
But what made the pain resurface was that.... I saw him on a street...with another girl...
He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me...as he touched the doll...
I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell...
Why did he gave these to me...
Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls...
In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around.
Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him.
He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house.
I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop.
I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, that....it’s going to end.
Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.
Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?
I couldn't help hating him, acting like nothing had happened and joking around.
Soon, he held out the doll as usual...
Me: I don't need it.
Jin: What....why. ..
I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
Me: I don't need this doll, I don't need it anymore!! I don't want to see a person like you again!
I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes were very shaky.
"I'm sorry" He apologized in a tiny voice.
He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll...
"You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!!"
But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll.
Then...
Honk~ Honk~
With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.
"Jin! Move! Move away!" I shouted...
But he didn't hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll.
"Jin, move!"
HONK~!!!
"Boom!" That sound, so terrifying.
That's how he went away from me.
That's how he went away without evening opening his eyes to say one word to me.
After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him...
And after spending two months like a crazy person...
I took out the dolls.
Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out.
I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days... when we were in love...
"One...two... three..."
That was how... I started to count the dolls...
"Four hundred and eighty four... four hundred and eighty five..."
It all ended with 485 dolls.
I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms.
I hugged it tightly, then suddenly...
"I love you~, I love you~"
I dropped the dolls, shocked.
"I....lo..ve. ..you??"
I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.
"I love you~ I love you~"
It can't be!
I pressed all the dolls' stomach as it piled on the side.
"I love you~"
"I love you~"
"I love you~"
Those words came out non-stop.
I...love you...
Why didn't I realize that.....
That his heart was always by my side, protecting me.
Why didn't I realize that he loves me this much...
I took out the doll under the bed and pressed its stomach, which was the last doll, the one that fell on the road.
It had his blood stain on it.
The voice came out, the on that I was missing so much...
"Jo...Do you know what today is? We've loved each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is?
I couldn't say I love you.... Um... since I was too shy... If you forgive me and take this doll,
I will say that i love you... everyday... till I die... Jo... I love you..."
The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I asked God, why do I only know about all this now?
He can't be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute...
For that... and for that reason... to me... it became courage... to live a beautiful life...

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And I Remembered ...

And I Remembered

My life and she is not inside it

Years was passed and I contented by it

And I thought if will met her eyes again

It is very easy to disregard it

And now who are you thought that you forgot

You met her this night then you trembled

So how there is things die?

And the chance is coming to make it survive again

Then I remember when my eyes come to her eyes whole my life with her

And I remembered the promise which we had taken in the past together

And I remembered her touch when my hand let her hand away

Now she in front of me with confusedness eyes

Will she come?!! will she hid?!!

Now the day came to see her

And unfortunately we were speechless

That is very difficult at me, and what I have to do?!!

There is nothing in my hand to do anymore

Now it’s over, but at least I saw her

Because really, I was so much missing her

And I Remembered …..

How I love you ...

You hold me in your eyes
In your own special way
I wonder how you know
The things I never say

I can’t imagine life
Without you by my side
The power of your love
Is all I need tonight

I know there have been times
That I have caused you pain
I’d turn them all around
If I could start again

There’s something I must say
I know it’s overdue
The sweetest thing I’ve known
Forever called my own
Begins and ends with you

How I love you
How I love you

The softness of your lips
The color of your hair
The memory of your touch
Remains when you’re not there

The echoes of your laughter
When I’m feeling blue
The meaning of my life
It all begins with you

So come into my arms
Lay down by my side
The moon is always there
To keep our love alight

I’ve reached so very high
For everything that’s mine
And at the top is you
I want you for all time
A dream forever new

How I love you
How I love you

The softness of your lips
The color of your hair
The memory of your touch
Remains when you’re not there

The echoes of your laughter
When I’m feeling blue
The meaning of my life
It all begins with you

So come into my arms
Lay down by my side
The moon is always there
To keep our love alight

You know me like a book
You’ve read a thousand times
We know each other’s hearts
We read each other’s mind
This feeling’s always new

How I love you
How I love you

The softness of your lips
The color of your hair
The memory of your touch
Remains when you’re not there

The echoes of your laughter
When I’m feeling blue
The meaning of my life
It all begins with you

The Train Of Life ...

Some folks ride the train of life
Looking out the rear,
Watching miles of life roll by,
And marking every year.

They sit in sad remembrance,
Of wasted days gone by,
And curse their life for what it was,
And hang their heads and cry.

But, I don’t concern myself with that,
I took a different vent,
I look forward to what life holds,
And not what has been spent.

So strap me to the engine.
As securely as I can be,
I want to be out on the front,
To see what I can see.

I want to feel the winds of change,
Blowing in my face,
I want to see what life unfolds,
As I move from place to place.

I want to see what’s coming up,
Not looking at the past,
Life’s too short for yesterdays,
It moves along too fast.

So if the ride gets bumpy,
While you are looking back,
Go up front and you may find,
Your life has jumped the track.

It’s all right to remember,
That’s part of history,
But up front’s where it’s happening,
There’s so much mystery.

The enjoyment of living,
Is not where we have been,
It’s looking ever forward,
To another year and ten.

It’s searching all the byways,
Never should you refrain,
For if you want to live your life,
You’ve gotta drive the train!